What are my passions, my frustrations, my motivations?

These are the questions I'm trying to ask myself in order to nail down my subject matter. I have a general idea of how I want it to look and how I want to go about doing it, but I'm stuck on the specifics of what it's about. There are a couple directions I could take and depending on those directions, there are different artists I can look to as inspiration and references for the paper. I'm afraid of starting one way with the paper and end up going another way with the work. But i need to figure it out soon so I can start getting something done.


passions/interests:
art, my cat, robots, dinosaurs, spacemen, bikes, mustaches, the ocean, coffee, food, dancing, music, traveling, sex, love, nature, vegetarianism, queer..ism..., equality, city dwelling

frustrations/fears:
art theory, ignorance, death and mortality, money/greed, inequality, trash, pollution

motivations/influences:
my mom, street art, activist art, pop art, Shepard Fairey, rebellion, friendship, love


I was trying to think back to the type of cultural environment that I grew up in. Like the defining teenage years. It was the end of the 90s.. 1999 i was a freshman in high school. the rest of my high school years were a weird birth of new millennium furturishness with a y2k scare that turned out to be nothing followed by 911 that turned into a whole other level of scared. I think it really shifted a lot of peoples perspectives on life and what is important. The following election brought a huge increase in voters, particularly that of young voters.
Post college seems a bit of a blur. a lot of the same old same old. and i think ambivalence set in with a lot of people...including myself. at least in terms of a political environment. That is until another election year came around and we voted our first non-white president. Earlier that same year was when i experience my first anti-gay protest while at a pride festival in Florida. It made me made but I also felt kinda sorry for these people that they had nothing better to do then to stand outside of a gay bar with messages of hate.
Since that election, there have been some wins and fails when it come to gay rights. Prop 8-fail. DADT repeal-win! The support for gay rights seems to grow everyday. the war in the middle east is almost something you forget about from time to time. you kinda remember when you start complaining about the economy being shit and wondering where all the money is going. corrupt politicians, corporate greed and oh...that war thats still happening. Occupy [insert city here] brought some of these issues to light. it might not have been the best way to bring about change. but it certainly got people to think about change.
which brings us up to the present. another election coming up. the end of the myan calendar approaching. we are at the edge of something. whether what follows will be good or bad has yet to be determined. oh i forgot to mention the series of unfortunate natural disasters. there is a bubbling build up on various fronts; environmental, political, social/ethical.
I'm at no loss for potential topics of significance. however, i have to figure out what's the most important to me in this moment or which would be the best to pursue for my thesis.