I'm so bad at updating this blog.... I say I've been busy but really what that means is in my free time I've been lazy and haven't felt like doing much. Honestly, I've been a little depressed and stressed because of money and feeling like my job is not worth the struggle to barely pay the bills. My girlfriend has moved in this past month which had somewhat helped the finances (she buys the groceries) but it has also lured me into a comfortable state of apathy towards my career. After a big fight earlier this week over something that was relatively minor, I've come to realize that I need to shake myself out of this funk.
So it's time to get excited about spring! and a few upcoming events that will hopefully rejuvenate my creative spirit.
First of all, it's beautiful out and also perfect biking weather. I took a ride after work yesterday with my friend David and we went around FDR Park which is just a few minutes ride from my house. This sparked a sense of adventure and surely there will be more rides like this and trips to the park in the near future. I'm excited to think about how I'll actually have more time to enjoy the spring and summer this year without a thesis looming over my head. We also have plans to fix up the back patio which unfortunately was used as a dog toilet last summer because my old roommate couldn't be bothered to walk her dogs like a normal person.
My dad has been getting himself back into photography again, particularly digital. With his retirement just around the corner, I'm very glad (and proud) that he's been interested in pursuing the arts again. He even set up an art show up at our church which is happening tomorrow.
In a couple weeks, My girlfriend and I are going to Mexico! Along the gulf. Just a week of sun and sand and drinks. My hope is that a week away from work and the city will recharge my battery and perhaps inspire some new work. Or a place to gather materials and footage for new work. Either way, the ocean has always served as a healing force for my soul. I need this. So bad.
May is a bittersweet month... I'll be turning 29 on the 16th. And it will have been 3 years since my Mom died on the 26th. It's crazy how fast time has flown by. And it still hurts. But I got to keep moving and creating cause I'm still here.
